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 Assalamualaikum Kisah fountain pen.  My first fountain pen was a gift from my dad. Suka sangat masa tu sebab i was very envy to see my dad recursive handwriting written using a black fountain pen. rasa macam wow.  My fountain pen was with me where ever i went. From Malaysia to the UK. I brought the pen with and use it during exam to write especially essay paper.  When i moved to kl,  i remembered i still have my pen with me until we moved to our house then, i couldn't find my pen. Could be it was thrown away together with a big box of my personal belonging that was throw away by my fil back then. I was pretty upset.  I have planned to get a new one but at that time, my financial was very tight. After almost 20 years, Alhamdulillah,  today is my rizqi. an engraved greyish fountain pen for me as self reward after what i have been through for the past one year. Alhamdulillah for the blessing. Until then, TTFN!! blu4sky 07122025

 pic source: google Assalamualaikum Surah Al-kafirun.  After Surah 3 Qul and Al Kaustar, Surah Al-kafirun was another surah that i memorized.  Surah ni dihafal bila dah start mengaji dengan ustaz Ahmad.  Masa ni dah belajar hukum mad asli & dah kenal qalqalah besar & kecil.  One of the reason i memorized this surah, apart from sebab takut tak lancar baca bila ustaz tanya, stress ya ampun, was this is the surah yang silap haribulan bila dibaca tak jumpa jalan keluar 😄...  So i memorized this surah to make sure i can jumpa jalan keluar if i recite in solat.  I paid extra attention..terlebih khusyuk sebab takut terbabas 🤭...  And the surah is also serves as a reminder for me about lakum dinukum waliyadin... This is the part and parcel of my mengaji journey✌🏻 Until next, TTFN!!! blu4sky 27112025  

  source: google & ig Surah al ikhlas. Obviously the first surah i learnt and memorized once upon a time without knowing the meaning because this was the surah in belajar cara solat book.  Hafal pun tulisan rumi. So for years i only recited the surah like a parrot until i have the rizqi to learn mengaji with ustaz ahmad. But at that time, my mahraj was still far from correct. But that was the beginning of my knowledge on what is mad asli, what is qalqalah, the dengung and tak dengung which i often mixed up. It was not an easy journey but alhamdulillah i became aware there are many qalqalah in surah al ikhlas and i tried my best to improve my recitation. This was another part of the beginning of my mengaji journey Until next time, TTFN!!! blu4ksy 25112025

 Assalamualaikum Being an empath is not a curse though being an empath attrack narcisisst or avoidant Being an empath has the heart that care deeply Being an empath see everything, every emotion, every change Being an empath is Allah gift to a person to be able to feel deeply see things that others ignore or unnoticed But being an empath also has our weaknesses We forgot about boundaries that we go beyong Hence when others hurt us, we are hurt deeply Lesson learnt for an empath Love yourselves Set a boundary without compromise your values You feel deeply, you care truly,  you love sincerely That is an empath within me that i would not trade for anything Because there is only one Me.  Until next time, TTFN!! blu4sky 21112025

Assalamualaikum picture source: google (ilmualam.com) The first surah that i ever memorized after surah al ikhlas.  I learnt on this surah my own. For years, this was the only surah that i was able to memorize due to lack of knowledge and unable to recite quran. My whole life i wish that there was someone who could teach me to recite the Quran. To guide me unfortunately i am not as lucky as others.  The struggle and the challenges that i encountered make me always question myself. Why was it so difficult for me to learn the Quran. I was doing something good, to learn to recite the Quran but why did Allah make it so difficult? I don't understand.  When i was younger, we were not fortunate to have ustaz ustazah to teach agama unlike in semenanjung. we were lucky when i was in primary school, there was one pakcik was transferred from papar to our place and this pakcik organized a mengaji class. i completed my muqadam and just before i started my Quran, the pakcik was transfe...

video source: IG myawakenlove  Assalamualaikum I was browsing through my IG and saw this video The difference between waiting and trusting waiting is attachment and expectation which is the root of fear whilst trusting is rooted in love.  you don't worry, you do not have doubt or anxious if things do not go your way your nervous system relax. When i watch the video, the concept of tawakal came across my mind The concept of tawakal  is very big for me. I do not have a good grasp of the concept. I know Tawakal means we surrender to Allah without any doubt but How do we surrender? How do we tell ourselves to have that "Yakin"? How do we make ourselves to not worry? Trusting is rooted in love When we love Allah, we trust in Allah You don't worry, you do not have doubt or anxious if things do not go your way We put our trust in Allah When we trust Allah. your nervous system relax No matter what the result is, we know it is the best for us we stop being anxious because we ...